I’ve always believed that you should never have any regrets
in life. Where you are right now was
from the path you walked on to get there.
There are times when we want to say I wish I never did this or didn’t do
that, but that’s wasted energy. You can’t
help where you are now but you can, to a certain extent, control where you are
going.
Another aspect to this is the belief (or disbelief) that
your destiny is predetermined either by God or the Universe or a giant cat that
lives in the mountains somewhere. I’m
not entirely sure if I believe this but there is some amount of comfort in
thinking it’s true. Why? I think it comes out of moments of despair or
when life takes you down a road of broken glass and rotting vegetables. You think, “Why did this happen to me?” and
you are told “It’s God’s plan” or “Life is like that” or the ever popular “Shit
happens.”
Shit does happen but we can sit there and smell it or we can
move on. I think it’s entirely too easy
to give up or get depressed about your current state of life but the truth is
if whatever problems you faced left you alive, then you’re probably going to be okay. If you stop and dwell on what happened, you’ll
get stuck like tires spinning in the mud.
Put that thing in four wheel drive and move out of the muck, man. There’s a lot more road ahead.
Why am I starting my new blog with this? Mainly because as of right now, 2012 will go
down as probably the worst year in my life. There
are still two and half months to make up for the previous nine and half but I
doubt a total comeback is possible. I’m
down 48 to 10 in my game with 2012 and I need more than a few Hail Mary’s to even
the score.
It’s funny because when things were better, I used to
comment about some of the turns I took while growing up and what would have
happened if I took a left instead of a right.
What if I had stayed in Arizona instead of moving to Texas in the mid 80’s? What if instead I stayed in California instead
of moving BACK to Texas when I did that in the late 80’s? What if I had more confidence when I was
younger when dating and pursued harder the woman who was then the woman of my
dreams? What if I never grew that
porn-star moustache I had for most of the 90’s?
What if I never married my first wife?
These questions were all put aside by simply saying, “Well
if I had done that, I wouldn’t be where I am now.” Those decisions led me to where I was as if
it was all planned out. When life is
good, that’s a great feeling to have but when life is less than good, you tend
to go back and wonder if you made the right choices.
And therein lies the problem. You can’t go back. You can’t undo the decisions you made so no
need to start wondering what would have happened if you made different ones. Life is life
and whether our ultimate destination is known or unknown, it really doesn’t matter
because YOU don’t know what is going to happen.
Instead waiting for the sign to change from “Don’t Walk” to “Walk,” just
go ahead and walk.
God, the Universe nor that giant cat up in the mountains won’t
care if you’re jaywalking.
